I've got so many different things going on in my head right now and I'm stressed out.

I've been severely depressed lately, moreso than usual. I feel sometimes like there is absolutely no hope.  But I cling to hope and maybe things are going to change soon.

I applied to two different libraries because both are hiring. One is in the town I live in, one is in the city I work in. I'm really hoping to get the one in the city I work in though, because my eventual hope is to move into that city instead where I could finally maybe be happier.  My house is just constantly filled with problems. If its not the water, its the electric. Plus we still don't have tile or carpet down in any rooms but 2. :/  And everything is so mismatched in this house, I just want to go and live somewhere normal again where I can easily clean the house and I'd be closer to work. I hate that it takes me 30 mins to go to work and 30 mins to get home. Thats an hour out of my day and it costs alot in gas money.

But anyways, I also need this job so I can get a bit more ahead.  It would free me of financial stress, and I'm hoping I could work it out with my current job and also go back to school in the fall. Its alot, but I'm hoping like hell it all works out. @_@  Cause I need SOMETHING good to happen for once.

I really wish my cousin would get out of our lives completely as well. Him and his stupid wife. Hes causing all the neighbors trouble and they aren't remotely taking care of their kids....The other day he kicked his daughter out (Shes 11!) for like 2 days. You can't just do that...  Plus I know they probably aren't being fed every day and I don't ever want to see the inside of their house cause they hoard and also they don't clean and I really think they have maggots/dog feces and such in their house. They just don't live like normal people do...  And plus there may be violence going on, but I'm not really sure.  We aren't involved with them anymore, and so I don't really know whats going on.  But I just wish the kids would be taken away, their parents sent to jail, and everyone would be much happier.

Anyways. Depressing thoughts aside, I really hope everything works out and gets settled like I want it to.  

On another note....I'm kind of...bored with dA. So don't really expect me on here much anymore.  I have over 1,000 deviations I should look thru and fav but I just don't have the energy. I'm just burnt out with dA at the moment. I'll try to come back soon though. I should say though that my camera finally basically died for good, not that it matters much cause I wasn't taking pictures anyways but basically I won't be putting any pictures up probably for who knows how long? lol.  Im going to try to get a new camera eventually but I'm not sure I'm ever going to really be back into photography.  Maybe when I move somewhere with a less dreary atmosphere, we'll see.

But for now, goodbye dA. I will return. ^^ Wish me luck!